PUSH that damn cloud away!!!

I’ve been doing THIS for a long time! You’d thing going out for dinner wouldn’t be a big deal. Ha! MOST OF THE TIME, it isn’t, but if I’m in a funk, I tend to want to eat dessert first —- life is short, after all… When I’m okay (thinking positively), it’s not a problem. Then, there are those days when I convince myself that I’m making much ado about nothing.

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“SUGAR BEAST”

Truth. It’s NOT nothing. T2D is not a joke, not something to be dismissed. So, in as much as I want to let that evil Sugar Beast in, I’m NOT going to.         Evil  *!@#!***

I really think that waaaay back, when I was first diagnosed, I convinced myself that I’d handle this “diabetes nonsense” and move on with my life. How naive was I? I knew then, and I still am acutely aware that Type 2 Diabetes is here to stay, and the harder I fight it, the worse I feel.

I used the word feel, because it isn’t only a physical issue, it’s also an emotional one. That’s the hardest part for me. I’m definitely a “stress eater,” My emotions send my appetite into high gear, when life hits the fan.

We all have choices! For me, making a conscious decision to choose wisely is where it all starts. I need to:

  • STOP —- Slow down and get a grip
  • THINK —-What outcome do I want from my decision?
  • BREATHE —-Deep breaths are imperative in order to stop and think before making an important decision.

Yes, eating that piece of cake is an important choice. It’s trivial to non-diabetics, but for me, it’s imperative to do the right thing. Most of the time, choosing to have dessert is not the end of the world (in my case), but importantly, I don’t want that decision to be the one that sends me over the cliff.

Seriously.  I’ve been able to treat my diabetes with diet, exercise, and one medication. Pretty good, I’m told. Here’s the thing — making a lifestyle out of eating the wrong things, lack of exercise, and failing to take my medication properly, WILL send me on the road to insulin. I don’t want that!

I don’t consider taking a little more insulin, or an extra pill, will make it okay for any diabetic to “cheat” on decisions regarding food choices. That’s a game I don’t want to play because, I know that I won’t come out the winner. I’m VERY competitive. If it’s between me and diabetes —- trust me, I’LL WIN!  I’ll succeed each and every day, by using the tools that I have.

Lately, I’ve been having difficulty with food choices. Ugh, it’s a killer. But, I’m living one day at a time, one choice at a time, and relief is on it’s way. I feel it. That cloud is starting to lift, if ever so slowly. I’m fighting to be able to follow the healthy road I’ve chosen for myself.

No need to rush —- slowly, carefully, I’m getting back on track. I CAN DO IT — and so can you.

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I CAN DO IT!

Preparing…

–to go out to dinner.

“Normally,” I go online to the restaurants website to check out the menu, so that I won’t “browse” when I get there. Unfortunately, I don’t have time for that; in a hurry.

“Normally,” I make sure that I eat a healthy snack, between lunch and leaving for the restaurant.

“Normally,” I make sure to down a big ol’ glass of H2O, before leaving.

Downing the water now.

Obviously, my “preparation” wasn’t terrific — but, the water should fill me up, to the extent that I’m not ravenous!

It’ll be fine. I hope.

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ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!!!!

 

Life Got in the Way —

Ugh. Life doesn’t just “get in the way;” we LET it happen. (At least, that’s what I think.)

So during the month’s that I was otherwise involved, I wasn’t writing.  A+ was not a grade that I earned in Diabetes 101, during that time.  It wasn’t pretty — evidently, I’m a stress eater.

I admit it — I caved. Damn those cravings! SUGAR = addictive. 

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The good news is I’m back on track. Part of my “relationship” with Type 2 Diabetes, is my belief that every day is Day 1.

 

 

 

Almost over —

–the holidays, that is.

Made it through the Valentine torture — you know what I mean! EVERYWHERE you go those damn red hearts follow. Filled with those delicious candies. Ugh.

I tried to convince myself that the boxes are heart-shaped for a reason, and that reason is to remind me to take good care of my heart! For the most part, I was pretty successful. For instance, if I have to pick up a prescription, I go through the drive-up window. It’s the only sane thing to do. The minute I walk into Walgreens, the chocolate attacks me — it’s everywhere! So, I don’t go in.

 

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Now, here we are again — chocolate bunnies wherever I look.  Torture to this Type 2 diabetic. Just one won’t kill you, I tell myself. HA! When did I ever eat one of anything? It’s over tomorrow. Then there will be no more chocolate bunnies stalking me.

I can do it!

Happy Easter and Happy Passover to all!  Good luck.

 

Tomorrow = a few days…

So, I’m not perfect. (You knew that.) In my last post I said, proclaimed, announced, that my attitude will be better “tomorrow.” Well my tomorrow took three days. Ugh! That’s the bad news. The good news is that my attitude is much better today!

I think I wasn’t eating enough. I ate and the food choices were appropriate, but my timing was WAY off. For instance, I may have skipped breakfast — I believe that it really IS the most important meal of the day. Eating that meal at ten o’clock is absurd, especially if you’ve been up since seven or eight a.m. That’s what’s been  happening. For some reason, I haven’t been hungry when I wake up, so I did some chores and then –POOF– it’s ten or eleven o’clock. Because it was almost lunch time, I decided to skip breakfast and just eat lunch instead. Then, later on when lunch time came around the corner, I wasn’t hungry…SO…I waited until around three or four and had a snack. Needless to say, dinner time came barrelling in and I couldn’t have cared less. Bottom line — I was eating dinner at eight or nine o’clock, if at all. THAT is not the route that a “Dedicated Diabetic” should be following. Okay, so that’s over!

I’m allergic to eggs, so breakfast has never been a nutritious meal for me, and since I was diagnosed, it’s been even more difficult. I actually spent years (pre-diagnosis) having a Boston Creme donut (or two!) to start my day.  It was an easy choice, terribly unhealthy,  but easy. 🙂

Breakfast is so important — it means BREAK the FAST! We need a nutritious meal in the morning to give our bodies the energy needed to start off the day. I’ve been so frustrated that the other day I bought a glucose daily diary/notebook. (Thank you Amazon.) Was that necessary? Not really, I’ve monitored my blood sugar with an online program, charts that I created, with tiny notebooks that fit into my purse, but didn’t have enough room to put the information I wanted to monitor. Oh, yes, I’ve been down this road before. Somewhere deep in the crevices of my brain, there’s a small voice that is SCREAMING, Why waste your time, you’ve done this before?  I scream back SHUT UP! and do what I think is necessary and correct. This journal/chart is about 6 x 9″ and will suit my needs. It  just seemed to be more coordinated, compact, and the information will be at hand when I need to make an entry.  Today will be my Day #One with this new “tool.” I’m laughing at myself, because I’m reminded of all the books on decluttering I’ve purchased — Do you know how much time I wasted reading those books instead of purging/decluttering?  🙂  🙂

Diabetes can often seem to be frustrating, even depressing. I think the only way to do battle with it, is to be prepared. An organized journal, healthy shopping list and a positive attitude might just do the trick. “Might” is not the appropriate term; it leaves space for failure. I’ll choose to say that these tools WILL do the trick.

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The time to start (AGAIN) is NOW!!!!

 

All About Attitude…

Seriously — I walk, I don’t walk.

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Exercise = IMPORTANT

 

I read the labels, I don’t read the labels,

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I eat, I don’t eat.

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I care, I don’t care.IMG_2323

IMG_3214            …and TODAY, mine stinks!

At an appointment with my doctor on Friday, she reviewed my blood work and was thrilled — my A1C was 6.1, down from 6.6 three months ago. I was disappointed, “I just want to see 5. something!”  [I know! I know! There are people who would kill for my numbers.] My reality is that I REALLY want to get off the Metformin. I’ve gone from three pills to two per day — I want NONE! Is that realistic? Well, when I asked my doctor (about six months ago), if she thought it was possible, her response was, “You’ve done it before.” NOT a huge vote of confidence but, she didn’t say it wasn’t likely. She loves my motivation — today is NOT one of those days. I’m allowed to have a miserable day, aren’t I? 😦

This T2D will keep moving on. I’ll walk this afternoon, make the right decision for dinner and start all over again — One day at a time.

I’ll have a MUCH more positive attitude tomorrow.

I swear I will! 🙂

 

 

 

 

How to Celebrate…

…ANYTHING! It’s been a pretty busy summer, especially in terms of food. There were birthdays, retirements, graduations, new babies — you name it. They all add up to FOOD!

For the most part, I used PORTION CONTROL. I’m convinced the answer lies in the amount of food we eat:

At home it’s easy — I simply use luncheon plates instead of dinner plates — that, and no seconds, usually works.

At a friend’s home, I certainly can’t control the size of dinnerware they use. In that case, I drink a big ol’ glass of water before  I approach the buffet (sometimes I down the H20 before I leave home). When dinner is served, I survey the table and choose the foods that I like the most. I totally ignore anything that’s not on the top of my list of favorites — no wasted calories for me!

In a restaurant, at a sit down dinner, I ask for a to-go box when I order. This eliminates any issues — when the dinner comes, I simply take half of everything and place it in the container. No embarrassment!  Experience has shown me that many of the people at the table will follow my lead. Later they thank me for the ingenious idea — I give credit where it’s due: My sister taught me that “little didie” and it works every time. Try it! You’ll see — by the time you’re finished your 1/2 dinner, you’re full. You’ll be even happier in the next day or two when you get to eat the delicious left overs. (Why is it that everything tastes better the next day?) I don’t understand people who won’t eat leftovers. Different strokes, I guess.

We’re discussing CELEBRATING an occasion; that always calls for a cake. Most times the hosts have a beautiful bowl of fruit, along with the cake, cookies, and other assorted no-no’s. Truth is, the cake always SCREAMS my name — Kathy! I’m over here. Ugh. It’s torture. Here’s what I’ve done this summer.  I put a small serving of fruit on my dessert plate first, (I always cut the fruit up into smaller pieces — it just looks like there’s more than there is.) now there’s room for a tiny piece of cake.  That’s it, and I’m a happy 🙂 woman!

How could I not be comfortable with those decisions?  I haven’t deprived myself of anything, so there should be no cravings. YEA!

Hoping you have a great time enjoying your CELEBRATIONS!