Wednesday, July 20, 2012
Good God, Kathy — Pick up the pace!
I CAN’T TAKE IT, when I’m off track or working at a really S L O W pace in ANY area of my life and that’s where I am right this minute. Ugh! I don’t know how it happens. It’s as if an enormous gust of wind sweeps through my day, grabs my plans, blowing them right out the window. I envision an open window, dressed in bright, white, sheer curtains –flowing, moving gently in the soft, gentle breeze. Then it happens — the sky darkens, the wind picks up its pace, and suddenly, SWOOOOSH!
I can see it, clear as day. My calendar, filled with an agenda created by me with tasks to make my day more productive and “perfect.” I can’t reach them (my plans) — they’re “caught” by the wind and taken to someone unknown, dark and deserted area, where they will fall, wither and die.
Obviously, that’s not what really happens; it feels like it, though.
Instead, in “real” life, my calendar — filled with dates and times, an organized agenda of things to do, calls to make, places to go, FLIES in the face of sanity. Yep, I get caught up in the boring momentum of doing what I don’t necessarily even want to do. …and, there go my plans…swoooosh.
It’s disappointing. But, who’s in charge here, anyway? That would be me! So then, GET A GRIP, Kathy. Get it together, get with the program, follow your plans! So much for the veritable tornado that you THINK is rushing through your life.
Sometimes, stuff happens — it just does. On those occasions, I know what a joke plans are; I realize that they’re not going to happen — no fault of mine. Those are not the days about which I’m speaking. I’m talking about the other days, when my schedule is laid out in a tight format, planned with no “outside influences” to distract me. The days when I pencil in:
- 7 :00 a.m. Take blood sugar and weight.
- 7:20 a.m. Throw in a load of laundry
- 7:30 a.m. Breakfast
- 8:00 a.m. Shower (toss clothes in dryer)
- 9:00 a.m. Get dressed, hair, makeup, blah-blah
- 9:30 a.m. BLOG
- 10:30 a.m. Leave for Writer’s Group
- 11 – 1:00 Writer’s Group
- 1:45 p.m. Lunch
- Remainder of day: nonsense that we all have to d0.
- 5:30 p.m. Walk!
- 6:30 p.m. Prepare dinner and mange
- 7:45 p.m. Clean up kitchen, fold laundry, etc.
- 8:15 p.m. Write my brains out
- 10:30 p.m. Relax, watch the tube, read, etc.
- Midnight Lights out!
Now THAT is a day that’s PLANNED PERFECTION. That is also a day that most likely will not happen the way it’s been “penciled” in. WAIT! Maybe that’s the problem — I should be using INK! 🙂 Commit, Kathy, Commit!
I don’t think that being “committed” is my problem. No, I think maybe I NEED to be committed. Not to completing my schedule, but to a lovely two-story, brick facade building, with great curb appeal, manicured lawns, flowers, trees. A delightful place where all the inhabitants are calm — probably from the regularly scheduled meds! 🙂 You know what I mean, where there’s no stress, all one’s needs are met… someone else does the laundry, cooks the meals, cleans — the whole magilla! STOP! That sounds like there might be locks on the doors, bars on the windows, and a high fence around the perimeter. NO THANK YOU. I’m not ready for that…yet?
No, seriously, the perfect scenario for me at this point in my life, is a regimen that keeps me on track but INCLUDES some flexibility. I’ve been living by the clock my entire life; I want to be done with that, at least for the most part. I’d like a schedule, but one that has blanks, so that I can pick and chose those things that I want/need to be included in my life. For instance, did you see Yoga on that schedule? No. Did you notice a massage? No. Was there a time written in to go to the city or the beach? No. Volunteering? No.
My conclusion is that I DON’T necessarily need to PICK UP THE PACE. What I do need, and want to do, is to have some time scheduled into my day to complete tasks that have to be done. Also filled in and highlighted, should be some fat ol’ blocks of time to do those things I WANT to do. I am, after all, retired; enough with the merry-go-round of jam-packed days, of running hither and yon. I repeat, NO THANK YOU!
My focus (with my “revised” schedule) will be on keeping myself healthy. Diabetes will not reign in my life — but I will do everything possible to keep it in check — and we all know what that means.
I’ll be taking that perfectly planned schedule (as listed above) and burning it! My new and revised “schedule” will be calmer, way more fun, and healthy, as will my diabetic-friendly meals and exercise. My PACE will be tailored for MY needs. Doesn’t that sound great?
Ta-da! That’s all folks! My voice rings out — I sing: “You can take that pace and…it!”
Don’t you just love Country Music? LOL. 🙂