Tuesday, March 8, 2016
One day I’m up with lots of energy, and the next I’m dragging like Linus’ blanket (remember that in the Peanuts cartoons?) — really dragging. What is that?
It’s that damn rollercoaster again, with it’s twists and turns and ups and downs = MY definition of Diabetes. I’m sure you recognize it. I guess it’s a loss of balance (or, at least at least a feeling of a loss of balance).
I’m moving along, eating properly, walking, monitoring my blood sugar. It’s all good, and then — WHACK! There goes that balance and me with it. Such a strange feeling.
Now, there are those days when it’s not a shock; you know, you ate that piece of cake and you’re not surprised that you feel like garbage. We are what we eat, after all. But, that’s not what this post is about. It’s about the MYSTERY of being out of balance. Do you know what I mean? When all that work we do to keep on track just doesn’t reap the rewards we expect. It’s frustrating, almost depressing. What causes it, and what can I do to fix it?
Here’s where I take a good, authentic look at myself and what I’m doing or not doing. Sometimes, if I’m aware that this out of balance feeling is creeping in, I actually log what I’m eating for the purpose of determining if there’s a connection between the food(s) and how I’m feeling. OF COURSE THERE IS! Stress is also a component of how we’re feeling emotionally and the range in which that blood sugar fluctuates.
See what I mean? Rollercoaster Ride!
What’s important is that there are answers to all the questions we have. Not necessarily the answers I want to hear, but answers nonetheless. Here are the things I may be feeling and, what I have learned, seems to be the decision I need to make to feel better:
- Tired, fatigued, lethargic Answer: MOVE my butt! Isn’t that just the way? The answer lies in the opposite of what I feel like doing.
- Feeling down, down, and sometimes REALLY down. Ugh. Answer: MOVE my butt! Again? C’mon, give me a break
- Frustrated, disgusted, sick of this damn disease! Answer: MOVE my butt!
- Stressed out. Answer: MOVE my butt!
The answers obviously lie in putting on my damn Big Girl Pants and moving the butt they cover! Ahhrrrggghhh! 🙂
Have you seen the play, movie, or even heard the soundtrack from Fiddler on the Roof? There’s a great song in it that speaks to traditions and balance (in the lives of the people in a small village). They sing out — repeating the words, Tradition, Tradition, over and over again. The song explains that it’s because of their traditions that they maintain balance in their lives. Their belief is no different than our commitment to our diabetes management, which — gives us balance! The tune really stays in your mind. [If you’ve never had the opportunity to hear it, I hope you click onto Youtube and check it out.] I remember seeing the play and the movie and feeling incredibly uplifted when they sang the song with such conviction!
So, when I’m having the feelings I’ve described within this post, here’s what I’ve been singing — I swear — out loud! — COMMITMENT, COMMITMENT! to the same tune (Tradition/Tradition!). First of all it makes me laugh, but more importantly, it reminds me of what I MUST do to get on track and stay there — to cope (comfortably) with DIABETES! Commitment to this purpose is imperative to me, so I’ll keep singing loud and clear (hearing the music from the soundtrack) and smiling.
Oh! I’m damn determined and dedicated to stare down diabetes. To look at it straight in the eyes and say ….! Well, those of you who know me, you know what I’d say. 🙂
Blood Sugar = 107 151.4 lbs.